It’s really difficult to write the story of my doomed relationship with Derek, as I said I would start doing about a month ago. I’m trying to break it up into “topics” but it’s resisting me! Everything is so intertwined—as it would be, of course. I working now on a post about the things I gave up to be with him and how those decisions have made my life extremely difficult today. I’m trying to leave out the threads about drinking (both of us) and abuse (him). But how can I?? Chronologically, it’d just look like a list of grievances. (Happy Festivus!) If I leave things out on purpose, I’ll appear dishonest. I dunno.
Anyway, it’s coming. Eventually. I’ll figure it out.
